Softening Warrior- A New Poem

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Deep currents rise
Spilling over my skin’s shores
Softening warrior-self
I am asked to put down the sword with imperfectly sharpened edges
Laying it to rest and
Soften with grace’s tide
In softness
we receive
we surrender
Standing perfectly in
Our wholeness
Our own truth
The only sword we ever needed.
-Written 7/30/2015 on Guru Purnima by Elizabeth Farrell

In my personal life, I am working on softening. I am working on letting go of the warrior-self I had created for protection that allowed me to work in challenging environments, and experience difficult life happenings. When we surrender our identity-created selves, we can then step into our own beautiful truth bringing a sense of completeness to our being.

May we all be warriors of light, love, and peace.

Clean Slates

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This post is all about clean slates.  In May of 2012, I started a book. I wrote 35 pages and I hadn’t opened it since. It has taken me three years to open the file. Something happened that I couldn’t explain, and so I left it unopened sitting there in my documents. I had started it after I had finished teaching special education. I was entirely convinced that I’d write about the unjust, f’d up educational system and how teaching was where I learned zen meditation.

When, I opened this story again three days ago all I did was cry. I sat there and cried. I re-read some of the stories about the kids I taught and my heart was broken all over again. I re-read about the anger, frustration, and the unbelievable that happened on a daily basis. And, I re-read about the love–the love of teaching, and love for my students.

Ready to write again, I sat down and tried to write. I added only one sentence and stopped. Most of what I write comes from a place that I can’t describe. Words are gifted to me simply to be shared. I have no other purpose in my writing, except to share this gift. I sat there staring at my screen asking, “What am I supposed to share? Where are the words?”

I get to start over with a clean slate. Clean slates are blessings and gateways into possibility.

Sometimes, we need to surrender, be brave and let go of our ideas, beliefs, fears, friendships/relationships, patterns, excuses, and anything that’s holding us back. When we wipe the slate clean, we are given new energy to create a new life, and a new story (including double rainbows).

For the Unheard- A New Poem

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This poem has been working it’s way through me for days now and finally it has arrived.

For the Unheard

by Beth Farrell

(Un)heard

Voice(less)

We become

We are photo-shopped

Sculpted

Painted

Sexualized

Bronzed

Anti-aged

(for your delight)

Quieted

(for generations)

in a man’s story

told to

stay quiet

told that

our power is (less)

told to say yes

and never no

 

Our voice

Heard

Rages in streams

In rivers

In oceans

In rain

In rivers

Our voices

Rage together

And Together

We

Soften stone

Inscribe wisdom onto riverbanks

Forge new waterways

For our daughters who will

Demand to be

heard.

Practices for Getting Rooted

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Our roots anchor us when so much of our busy lives can displace us.

Simple is always going to feel better to our spirit than busy, complicated, and overwhelmed.

Walking barefoot always feels better than with shoes on.

My Practices for Getting Rooted

  1. Simplify your schedule. Say “no” more often. Create a schedule that gives you space and allows you to get what you need done. One thing you can do is schedule this time in. I write on my schedule things like “Beth Time.” This way I am more likely to honor that time.
  2. Create a self-care routine. Routine creates balance and makes us happy. We all have a routine that when we are busy we easily forget. Getting rooted means adding some element of a self-care routine into our daily lives. For me it’s my morning tea and journal followed by some asana.
  3. Eat grounding foods. Some foods lighten and others ground. I need grains to feel grounded and connected to Earth. I also need unctuous comfort foods to feel nourished. Get connected to the Earth by eating healthy, organic, wholesome and nourishing foods for your body.
  4. Plant your bare feet on the Earth. We all need more time to feel the Earth beneath our feet—not pavement. When we connect to the Earth’s energy we reconnect to ourselves.
  5. Getting Rooted Meditation.
    Start in a comfortable cross-legged position, sitting on blankets, a meditation cushion or sit outside in nature. Close your eyes and allow your organs of perception to be quiet and passive. Become aware of your breath spending a few moments connecting to yourself. As you breathe bring your awareness to your exhale. Allow the exhale to be longer than your inhale so that the exhale releases tension throughout the body. Next, bring your attention to the base of your spine at the tailbone. Imagine roots reaching down through the Earth grounding you to the core of the Earth’s energy. Now, bring that energy up through those roots all the way up your spine to the crown of your head. Pause. On your next exhale allow Earth energy to flow back down from the crown of your head all the way back down the spine. Release all that is no longer needed. You can continue to practice in this way, or come back to regular breathing.

You can listen to the meditation below. :

P.S-This is my first attempt at adding a recording here. I will say my gratitude now to Mercury for being kind and graceful on this first attempt.

Healing Indira

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I am happy to report that I am launching my new website today–Healing Indira. Healing Indira is inspired by daughter who has a rare genetic condition called Tuberous Sclerosis Complex. You can learn more about it on my website. She is my hero and greatest teacher. She is an inspiration to all of us.

Sometimes our greatest challenges in life spark our purpose. May we all spread love, kindness, compassion, and share our gifts with the world.

(You will still find me here writing this blog.)

Shadow and Light

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We are being asked to allow light to permeate shadow.

We are being asked to wake up to a new paradigm one of equality and non-duality.

We perceive light and shadow as separate energies. We push darkness out and deny it’s existence in ourselves, our lives, and in our society. We successfully hide it until it shows itself. We don’t want to talk about it out of fear or for other reasons. We are conditioned to being afraid of our own shadow, others, and society’s shadow. Shadow and light is the same divine energy–potent and creative.

What if we acknowledged the illusion that we have created? The illusion of separateness.

Our co-created reality of separateness has led to violence, isolation, depression, and inequality.

We are all divine creations.

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The Nature of Being Humbled

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“Practice more,” my teacher said.

Our own personal practice provides us the opportunity to quiet our external desires, our story, our image, and settles us into our inner-self.

In so many ways we are humbled by life. Sometimes it is through our own suffering, life circumstances, illness, our teachers, or the work we do. I look at this spring earth, and how it becomes gentler, softer, and vulnerable. The mother earth is ever so vulnerable as she carries us, holds us, and nourishes our lives.

When we are humbled we soften, allow ourselves to receive, and become vulnerable. This may not feel comfortable and it may feel like we are meeting our edge. We can learn so much from being in this space.

Becoming a mother has been a life-changing practice for me, and deeply humbling. When you become a mother the seams of your heart open. You and your child become a seamless connection. You become humbled by unconditional love.

As a mother, you are pushed to your edge daily. You worry sometimes irrationally. You lose all selfish tendencies. Even when you do something for yourself or go to work you are still present with your child, and may even feel a tinge of guilt.  Even in your most exhausted, overwhelmed, do-it-all moments, or when you just can’t take anymore– we slowly soften surrendering to the heart of all that matters. This is the nature of being humbled.

When we allow ourselves to soften and step into the heart of all that matters, we become humbled. It is not a place of weakness, yet a quiet strength like that of our mother earth.

 

New Poem

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There is a hawk that lives in a tree by my house. It is a frequent visitor. I see this as pure magic. This poem is inspired by my hawk-friend.

We rise

over and over again

our wings take flight

we soar

our feathers

woven in wisdom

our wings carry echoes

of how we have left our other self  in pieces to rest

how we have lifted our heavy wings

to light.